I get it!

I am angry, sad, hormonal and nauseated.

I should be 7 weeks pregnant. Instead I am going through my 3rd pregnancy loss in 4 years. I should be "2 for 2", not "3 for 1" in the sucessful pregnancy odds. I should NOT be so experienced at what to do when your early pregnancy goes south. Are you kidding me? I get the message that life is hard and there are challenges but it seems like you can only get kicked in the face so many times.

This loss is considered a blighted ovum or empty sac: http://www.americanpregnancy.org/pregnancycomplications/blightedovum.html
Nothing related to my first two losses so it looks like I am spreading my bad luck out???

I am sad for the loss of this baby (it doesn't matter if I already have a beautiful daughter and someday I will have another-hopefully).
I hate the feeling of getting kicked off the "pregnancy train" and sent to the start of the line like I am playing a board game. I hate to be the one to have so many negative health issues. Maybe I should start doing plastic surgery so I can get something positive out of my health care dollars.

I have opted for a D&C this Wednesday morning so I can start over again sooner than later. My body doesn't seem to get the message that my pregnancies are over when they should be. The flip side is my "MS body" won't be in remission any longer so I may be experiencing more symptoms with the change in hormones etc. As if a pregnancy loss wasn't bad enough.

I have to leave on a postive note, right? Hopefully we will get pregnant again soon so I don't have to get back on my MS medications.
I am angry, sad, hormonal and nauseated. I am also loved by so many friends and family members who will help me get through this.